the awakening of....

As I end off this Sunday, I feel miraculously peaceful and still...despite almost having been in church the whole day. Discussions, mic cables, mics in pockets and red masking tapes have become common items synonymous with Fraser. To top if off, I just ended a session doing sound for an external congregation.

Praise to be God. There were no hiccups during the session at all! The program was astonishingly smooth, even on my end. This is despite the fact that I did not realise that they were into the actual program...until 30 minutes later. I drove stuff till red lamps were flashing, but things were sure really under control.

God seems to be really telling me something.

For once, I appreciate our church's 16 year old mixer. Cranky as it may be, I really do feel its a great piece of equipment that can be smooth sounding.

The greatest highlight of today was God's peace. Things went wrong for the 1st half of the day, but God helped me in remaining calm and collected all the way. I surprised even myself by packing up with a smile and yes, making new friends with ease.

If its of encouragement, it really makes a difference when you commit unto God your cares. But I have been outrageously guilty of not doing that.

This comes after my previous posts which reflected the mess I've gotten myself into. A close brother suggested that we'd feel all sorts being distant from our Maker. How true. I was in a complete mess that week.

Speaking of which, I'd really like to thank CUZ for having such a great heart and love for those around him. What a tangible representation of God. Firm and convicting, yet gentle enough to look beyond the surface and emphatise. Thank God for blessing me with you in my life.

And for the countless people who've stuck around, shown concern and administered God's love, I really appreciate you all! =)

To sum it all up, the pain, anger, hurt and bitterness remains. But I guess I now have the courage to stand strong, deal with them one at a time and move on because of God. Zai succintly sums it up when he remarked that as believers, we have the privilage of having a Divine being of whom we can pour our cares and sorrows unto.

'nuff said. my nose is screaming for tissue.

*winks*

Always,

noed resarf