Wednesday, December 27, 2006

undecidedly weary.


Nice.

The event poster. Indeed, its a time for praise and thanksgiving, no matter how rotten your life may seem to be.



Yet another toy to my collection, courtesy of Shang. Some of you might have heard that I really want to own a Bose system and drive a Benz :) Well, part of the equation is complete, although I am still persuading the Bose system to emerge out of hibernation mode .

48 hours after Christmas, I must say that I'm still really tired out from having spent over 30 hrs in church over Saturday, Sunday and Monday setting up for, rehearsing, and mixing for the entire Christmas project for my church.

I dare say I've carried more stuff in all my ministry years put together in three days. A team of four from the sound team laid cables, placed the speakers in place, and were literally on their toes the entire day to make sure that the event ran well. Oh well, the joys of serving in this ministry indeed.

Nonetheless, I was glad that the opportunity really opened my eyes. Its wonderful to see how we, from different giftings and walks of life, have come together to present our best for the Lord. I was glad to have worked with ZhiZhen, Chai Heng, Esther, Han Wei and Jeffrey, who, in my opinion, are indeed promising musical talents!Man...I wished I could be like them at times.
And there were so many others from the Chinese congregation, like George and Joseph, who I'd never have the chance to know if I was not involved.

On another hand, I got to play with Bose speakers and a Mackie mixer. Its opened my world up and I'm glad to be able to lay my hands on such stuff!

As usual, I received my fair share of trials, criticism and frustrations while serving for this event. I guess its give and take. Working with others allowed me to have a clearer idea of their expectations and working styles, and it has certainly helped me in deciding if we should work together in the future. Hush on that.

It gets to me at times indeed. I kind of made a resolution that I would not serve in the PA ministry for any of the big events for the next year. I just felt a need for me to step back and find time to sit with my cell members, with the members of the congregation, and not get overly involved. But like what thend and earthdust and stardust II says, I often fail to listen to my own advice.

Oh well. Physician, heal thyself?

Having a chat with Armstrong last night was really an encouragement. James delivered a very powerful rendition of the song "I'm amazed" for two shows in a row, and I must say that I am indeed amazed by how God uses each and every one of us in ways we never thought possible. In my moments of despair and weariness, God sent this brother to minister to me and I am indeed thankful.

I'm also thankful to my usual gang for tirelessly administering God's love and grace, as well as lending a good ear when I really felt like shooting some people straight on their feet.

Indeed God is amazing. The reality and majesty of God just wants to make me contemplate my life, to continually check my heart, and motives. What would I want Him to say, and think of me, when I eventually stand in front of Him?

To me, that is the questions that I will live with.

As 2006 draws to an end, may 2007 be a year full of purpose and development for each and every one of us.

Blessed Christmas and new year!




4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hmm....how did I end up on the honours roll? Haha....for drinking kopi in the background? :P

Don't make resolutions you can't keep...;> Oh well, stay off big events by all means, but don't start taking about getting out of PA altogether....cos God designed you to do and breathe PA...:)

God is sovereign and great! It's amazing how He weaves us all together as His Bride...despite our human failings...all His grace and glory...

Not ignoring the problem spots (which not only others, but you and I have), but don't miss the big picture either...

Baby Camera said...

So good !! Bose !!

My fav high end system !!

Nvm ...

Next year, i may receive my first
FF camera !! YES !! I'm finally change my 1.6 crop system !!

Earthdust said...

"But like what thend and earthdust and stardust II says, I often fail to listen to my own advice."

dunno really know what you are trying to say here... but to reinstate what coram deo, dun leave a vacuum in the PA ministry, it is just a form of self glorification simply because everyone want to be remembered when they are gone and unreplaced. groomed some talents in the mist through identification and encouragement before any intentions of living.

remembered, dun seeked to be remembered but seeked everyone to remembered God, our Lord Jesus Christ.

noed-resarf said...

Erm. Self glorification?

I fail to see how leaving the ministry (that is, IF i leave) can be a form of self glorification. I'd want to take a break and be able to sit in places other than my usual spot.

For the record, Im not looking to be remembered in anyway. Perhaps I hope people will remember me as a blessing, rather than an expert or some technical person.