The four seasons (of the soul)

What a day indeed. In twenty four hours I've fully utilised a ticket for an emotional roller coaster ride. Wanted to update this right after coming home, but the site was down. Looking back,I believe that its God plan that I think over my thoughts before publishing this post.

I shall not elaborate on all the four seasons of the soul I've experienced, but rather the ones that I consider the most impactful ones and the learning points(on a personal basis)

It has been almost twelve hours since I last jumped out of the gates of the rollercoaster ride by praying and interceding hard for myself and some others around me. I had the privilage of indulging in a meaningful time of sharing and fellowship yesterday. I'm thankful that js,tw,jl and sy opened up to me yesterday in a way or another.

Looking at the amount of frown lines in sy's face somehow made me feel that he was heavily burdened. What he shared about during P&P made me realise that life was way fragile. After P&P, I had dinner with the rest of the team and accompanied James to his block before taking a ride home.

Through all these interactions, I could sense the struggles that each one of us were going thru at the moment. I felt really heavy at heart and burdened hearing the struggles of those around me.

Now understand that this is happening because I care for my friends and dear ones in a very personal way. Your problem, once shared with me, creates in me a sense of ownership that aims to help you to overcome it.

Compunded by my own fears and struggles, I became really despondant at one period of time while chatting online with AL and CLC. Hearing them sharing their struggles in addition to what I just heard, I really felt depressed and helpless.

Which was why I had to close my eyes for a moment or so and pray really hard that God would rise up amidst all our fears, concerns, unbeliefs and help us to overcome our problems.

God works in amazing ways..he has made me in such a way that I can feel for and relate to the struggles of those around me with one thing in mind: that I pray for them.

Which was what I am thankful I did, because I felt that God was really listening and by casting all my cares upon Him,I had affimed His Sovereignity over all thats happening in our lives.

The night wasnt easy tho. I was still so bothered over my own issues and struggles that I almost had to cry myself to sleep.

"Weeping may last thru the night, but joy comes in the morning." How apt indeed! This morning, i felt less laden and even could accompany Teck Wee for a nice jog at Serangoon. We had a great chat after that and I am thankful for this opportunity to know him so much better.

Looking back, all of us have our own set of problems, yet God has unified us that we do not grapple with our own issues alone, but we can draw comfort in the fact that we are not alone and we have others to fall on. Being spritually accountable for someone elses' problems keeps you in good spritual health. As you pray and intercede for him or her, you keep your focus fixed on God..henceforth your problems dont seem that HUGE anymore.

Its a brighter satuday, and I'm keeping myself in top shape (running, some weight lifting and swimming later). What can I say?

God: YOU ARE ABOVE ALL indeed.

AdL, CLC: Your encouragment really helped.. in the midst of my despondancy, I realised that I still had Someone to turn to. May God's hand be with you and provide for you both as you continue to truimph over your challenges.

Teck Wee: Thanks for the jog, the listening, the encouragement and even the encouragement in your postboard way back then.

JS, JL: Thanks for being open and sharing your thots. May the Lord's wisdom and joy be with you!

Mariah Carey: Its far, but your verse included in your album is really encouraging given the circumstances. God bless.

Vio: I know you are prayin for me still! Lets continue to uphold each other!

Sayonara.