Am I selfish?
I feel that I am. What happened was that we were sharing our prayer requests during cell on Friday, and it suddenly hit me that my prayers were self centered. Many of my cell members prayed for empowerment to be more effective servants for God. As for me, my prayers focused more on my needs, e.g. finding a good job, favor amongst people etc etc.
Truly, I feel that I have come to be selfish. The desire to serve God in areas of reaching out to people and witnessing seem foreign to me these days. Its been lightyears since I prayed for empowerment and blessings in this area. I dont know why, but this feeling suddenly struck me out of the blue and I felt accused. It was literally a slap to the face.
Oh well. Perhaps its time I do some soul searching, to question myself, to push myself to seek God's direction in this area of ministry. Perhaps its time to break out of my comfort zone, and develop myself in this area. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.
On another note, I felt encouraged that Mien put in alot of effort into completing her BS homework despite her crazy work schedule. Way to go sis!
Eugene, James, Teck Wee ,Adrian and Kelvin, thanks for hearing me out and expressing your opinions to my thoughts and for your encouragement.
Here comes Saturday, and I'm having a run at Serangoon with TW in the early hours of the morning. We had a great time working out our lungs, and had a LIVE reanactment of Brokeback Mountains. For details, go smile at Teck Wee!
Whatever it was, I think we're allergic to people wearing skimpy red singlets now.
Spent the afternoon at this lovely tea house along Neil Road, and thats where we sat down to appreciate chinese tea and made use of the occasion to celebrate the birthday of a close family friend. The Chinese tea culture is interesting as it comes, and offers a welcome respite from my daily routine of English tea, coffee and Coke.
I'd like to go chill out at this place once more with the company of friends.
I'm ending this post here because I need to rest early, kinda injured my back doing log lifting the wrong way, and I'm now having a sneak preview of how it feels like to be seventy with all the body and back aches.
Some special notes:
CL: Glad to know you're back safe. May the good Lord continue to bless and watch over you and all at home.
J.S : PLEASE keep us updated so we can uphold you in prayer.
Apologies for the lousy post.
1 comment:
"Am I selfish?"
Don't speak too soon. Borrow John Piper's 'Desiring God' from Joy Seng and read first. :)
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