It must have been light years since I’ve last visited this little online adobe myself, let alone make efforts to post anything on it. And for those who have been nudging me to update this blog, here’s a little reward for your patience!
Stumbling through the cobwebs, droppings and stale air, I throw the windows open, flinch at the amount of sunlight coming through and begin my entry.
As I pen this, I bemoan the fact that I’m turning 26 this month, still single and making my way up that proverbial shelf on the wall, and not getting more handsome...NAH….Godliness with content is great gain!
So much has happened in the past few months that it’s almost impossible for me to list them in chronological order. For the sake of your sanity, I shall demarcate, and shed light on the more significant ones.
a. Love Life.
The last I shared, there was this sister in Christ I was praying for. I’m glad I’ve finally made known my feelings to her, and though it was tough accepting the fact that we could not be together, I delight in the fact that we did not wreck our already close friendship, and I will still love her as a dear sister.
It wasn’t easy. I remember the night I learnt that she was exploring another path with another gentleman. I remembered - the wallpaper on her laptop were obvious tell tale signs. I almost cried.
But it’s fine now, that I’ve gotten over the hurt and rejection. I’m enjoying my singlehood as of now, and waiting upon the Lord. In the meantime, I’m actually actively seeking the Lord. My heartstrings have been tugged once again.
A shout out to all those who have expressed their care and concern: I thank you so much from the bottom of my heart.
b. Walk with God
The Lord has used this incident to encourage me, and prod me in the direction seeking Him actively-even as I was hurting over this. He has, in many ways, brought me in broken-ness and hurt before Him, allowing me to experience His inconceivable, gracious love. For that I’m thankful.
It’s been a positive experience spending quality time with Him and I look forward to growing and maturing. Its all easier said than done, though. The battles of the men (outer, and spirit man) are strong, and my strong reaction to “injustice” gets in the way of me responding in a biblical manner to the many struggles I face.
I can only look to Him for faith, courage and assurance as I press on.
c. Ministry Life.
I’ve have had the pleasure of meeting several nice folks in the course of serving in the PA ministry as a wedding and event technician at church. Several of these acquaintances have become friends, and one couple has even introduced me to rock climbing (thanks guys, I’ll see you in three months!) and I’m thankful for these friends and family in Christ that God has placed into my life.
At times I feel burdened, worn out and tired. It’s can be a challenge availing yourself for rehearsals, events and being involved in other activities where humanly speaking, the time could have been better spent on sleeping, and other affairs you may have to attend to. Yet I’m always reminded that this is a God given gift- and if need be, I should endeavour to bless with what He has so graciously provided me with.
God takes care of this aspect too. It brings a smile to my face when I recall that the bus to church always appears in no time (when I am on duty), and He sends people to send me home (when I make the effort to facilitate rehearsals and stuff) and for an understanding family who doesn’t moan about my often disappearances from home.
Enough of the rosy part. I feel extremely challenged working with people who, in my opinion, lack initiative, responsibility and urgency. I am, on many occasions, tempted to ask them to “wake up their ideas” and “get their act together” when they fail to notice things. Mind you, this is an I/C I’m referring to. I’ve always held on to the opinion that I/C’s should set a good example.
I’m frustrated because all these negative feedbacks come to me (and I’ve long passed the baton, mind you) and not to the I/C. My guess is that they’ve tried, but it has all come back to them void. So, they’ve reverted to telling me.
And since this is my personal blog, I spare no qualms in telling you that I feel exactly like the ex Prime Minister of a certain country, who is probably regretting passing on the baton to his successor. I alternate between wanting to throw my hands up in the air, and giving the person concerned a piece of my mind.
Enough is enough!
d. Work Life
Let me begin this post by thanking God for S and P, my great bosses, colleagues and family in Christ, who have offered their ears, sane advice and helping hands in time of need.
There comes a point of time when you feel stagnant, un-needed and thoroughly unmotivated. Then, you start wondering if you should move. You get held back my emotions and uncertainty, and then your work performance suffers. You keep asking yourself why you’re in this place yadda yadda.
That was me.
If I did not have bosses who possess great faith in me, I would have joined the ranks of the ever increasing population of unemployed individuals as I type this. But I’m not. They understood my concerns, fears and struggles and were very gracious with me.
I was presented with an open door (an events company) and decided to pay the chaps to have a feel and learn more. I went with an open heart, and decided that this was pretty much a closed door for me. If I had to make a choice, I choose to grow this company with S and P, no matter which division I end up in. Enough said.
The road ahead is exciting and I can only look forward in anticipation. Then again, I feel God’s prompting for me to rise up- and fulfill His purpose in where He has placed me, and in contributing to our corporate vision of growing His Kingdom!
Other personal affairs; the final point.
e. Sporting activities
I’m missing climbing for some time (3 months actually) because of a long term injury that was awakened recently. Its pretty humbling not being able to walk as briskly as I used to without experiencing sharp pains in my leg, and I now am able to empathize with other individuals who get shooed out of the way by impatient folks like me. So much for rushing into getting back into action! I’ve actually caused more damage to my already busted leg. =(
I went back to the walls yesterday to return a loaned harness to a friend, and was sour having to walk away without giving a shot at the walls. It was a terrible feeling.
Randy and Desiree, if you’re reading this, I won’t be able to have fun defying gravity with you for some time. Let me heal and I’ll see yer there in three months max!
On the other hand, cycling and running don’t seem to invoke much pain and damage (as far as I’ve observed) so I shall be catching up on these activities in the interim.
f. Year end plans.
Leon’s musical performance is slated to take place on the 23rd Nov. A few days away from us turning older, and I hope I can be there to catch his performance.
My mom’s school performance is really round the corner, and while I’m a little stressed, I’m looking forward to making this an event a memorable one, and an opportunity to lay my hands on her new sound system! =)
December beckons, and so draws near my much anticipated trip to Melbourne. My cousin’s getting married and I’m looking forward to be part of this chapter of her life albeit in a different setting altogether. This should serve as the perfect wrap up for 2008, and a perfect time for my family to bond and catch up with old friends residing down under.
And so, wraps up another long post from noed resarf. Guten tag!
Stumbling through the cobwebs, droppings and stale air, I throw the windows open, flinch at the amount of sunlight coming through and begin my entry.
As I pen this, I bemoan the fact that I’m turning 26 this month, still single and making my way up that proverbial shelf on the wall, and not getting more handsome...NAH….Godliness with content is great gain!
So much has happened in the past few months that it’s almost impossible for me to list them in chronological order. For the sake of your sanity, I shall demarcate, and shed light on the more significant ones.
a. Love Life.
The last I shared, there was this sister in Christ I was praying for. I’m glad I’ve finally made known my feelings to her, and though it was tough accepting the fact that we could not be together, I delight in the fact that we did not wreck our already close friendship, and I will still love her as a dear sister.
It wasn’t easy. I remember the night I learnt that she was exploring another path with another gentleman. I remembered - the wallpaper on her laptop were obvious tell tale signs. I almost cried.
But it’s fine now, that I’ve gotten over the hurt and rejection. I’m enjoying my singlehood as of now, and waiting upon the Lord. In the meantime, I’m actually actively seeking the Lord. My heartstrings have been tugged once again.
A shout out to all those who have expressed their care and concern: I thank you so much from the bottom of my heart.
b. Walk with God
The Lord has used this incident to encourage me, and prod me in the direction seeking Him actively-even as I was hurting over this. He has, in many ways, brought me in broken-ness and hurt before Him, allowing me to experience His inconceivable, gracious love. For that I’m thankful.
It’s been a positive experience spending quality time with Him and I look forward to growing and maturing. Its all easier said than done, though. The battles of the men (outer, and spirit man) are strong, and my strong reaction to “injustice” gets in the way of me responding in a biblical manner to the many struggles I face.
I can only look to Him for faith, courage and assurance as I press on.
c. Ministry Life.
I’ve have had the pleasure of meeting several nice folks in the course of serving in the PA ministry as a wedding and event technician at church. Several of these acquaintances have become friends, and one couple has even introduced me to rock climbing (thanks guys, I’ll see you in three months!) and I’m thankful for these friends and family in Christ that God has placed into my life.
At times I feel burdened, worn out and tired. It’s can be a challenge availing yourself for rehearsals, events and being involved in other activities where humanly speaking, the time could have been better spent on sleeping, and other affairs you may have to attend to. Yet I’m always reminded that this is a God given gift- and if need be, I should endeavour to bless with what He has so graciously provided me with.
God takes care of this aspect too. It brings a smile to my face when I recall that the bus to church always appears in no time (when I am on duty), and He sends people to send me home (when I make the effort to facilitate rehearsals and stuff) and for an understanding family who doesn’t moan about my often disappearances from home.
Enough of the rosy part. I feel extremely challenged working with people who, in my opinion, lack initiative, responsibility and urgency. I am, on many occasions, tempted to ask them to “wake up their ideas” and “get their act together” when they fail to notice things. Mind you, this is an I/C I’m referring to. I’ve always held on to the opinion that I/C’s should set a good example.
I’m frustrated because all these negative feedbacks come to me (and I’ve long passed the baton, mind you) and not to the I/C. My guess is that they’ve tried, but it has all come back to them void. So, they’ve reverted to telling me.
And since this is my personal blog, I spare no qualms in telling you that I feel exactly like the ex Prime Minister of a certain country, who is probably regretting passing on the baton to his successor. I alternate between wanting to throw my hands up in the air, and giving the person concerned a piece of my mind.
Enough is enough!
d. Work Life
Let me begin this post by thanking God for S and P, my great bosses, colleagues and family in Christ, who have offered their ears, sane advice and helping hands in time of need.
There comes a point of time when you feel stagnant, un-needed and thoroughly unmotivated. Then, you start wondering if you should move. You get held back my emotions and uncertainty, and then your work performance suffers. You keep asking yourself why you’re in this place yadda yadda.
That was me.
If I did not have bosses who possess great faith in me, I would have joined the ranks of the ever increasing population of unemployed individuals as I type this. But I’m not. They understood my concerns, fears and struggles and were very gracious with me.
I was presented with an open door (an events company) and decided to pay the chaps to have a feel and learn more. I went with an open heart, and decided that this was pretty much a closed door for me. If I had to make a choice, I choose to grow this company with S and P, no matter which division I end up in. Enough said.
The road ahead is exciting and I can only look forward in anticipation. Then again, I feel God’s prompting for me to rise up- and fulfill His purpose in where He has placed me, and in contributing to our corporate vision of growing His Kingdom!
Other personal affairs; the final point.
e. Sporting activities
I’m missing climbing for some time (3 months actually) because of a long term injury that was awakened recently. Its pretty humbling not being able to walk as briskly as I used to without experiencing sharp pains in my leg, and I now am able to empathize with other individuals who get shooed out of the way by impatient folks like me. So much for rushing into getting back into action! I’ve actually caused more damage to my already busted leg. =(
I went back to the walls yesterday to return a loaned harness to a friend, and was sour having to walk away without giving a shot at the walls. It was a terrible feeling.
Randy and Desiree, if you’re reading this, I won’t be able to have fun defying gravity with you for some time. Let me heal and I’ll see yer there in three months max!
On the other hand, cycling and running don’t seem to invoke much pain and damage (as far as I’ve observed) so I shall be catching up on these activities in the interim.
f. Year end plans.
Leon’s musical performance is slated to take place on the 23rd Nov. A few days away from us turning older, and I hope I can be there to catch his performance.
My mom’s school performance is really round the corner, and while I’m a little stressed, I’m looking forward to making this an event a memorable one, and an opportunity to lay my hands on her new sound system! =)
December beckons, and so draws near my much anticipated trip to Melbourne. My cousin’s getting married and I’m looking forward to be part of this chapter of her life albeit in a different setting altogether. This should serve as the perfect wrap up for 2008, and a perfect time for my family to bond and catch up with old friends residing down under.
And so, wraps up another long post from noed resarf. Guten tag!
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